Beyond mountains…

As part of my BSN program I am taking a theology class and am reading Mountains Beyond Mountains by Tracy Kidder…

It’s the story of Paul or Pj Farmer and how he lives his life serving others with a special passion for helping the poor in Haiti. He didn’t grow up wealthy by any means and at one point lived on a bus with his 5 other siblings while it was parked in a trailer park, sleeping in tents when the bus broke down, or living on a boat and washing his clothing in the dirty river never really getting them clean. His mother never complained and his father instilled work ethics like a warden. Despite his “horrible childhood” and never getting any recognition for his accomplishments or even a simple “I’m proud of you” he grew up to be a doctor who puts all his time and effort into healing Haiti and never takes even a moment for himself. He is now known worldwide and has made a huge difference in Haiti. I am only part of the way through part II but the Haitian proverb; “beyond mountains, there are mountains” really resonates with me… there are many ways to interpret it but Farmer relates it to a non-dualistic life style of no matter what mountain you climb your work is never done and there is no time to rest, keep plugging along and follow your path…

I’ve been through a lot in my short 32 years of life. My child hood was not perfect (no ones ever is). I moved a lot and dealt with abandonment issues from my father and father figures who didn’t stick around. My teenage years were spent trying to figure out how to be a mom while growing up myself. As a young adult I tried to keep my individuality while taking care of 4 young children, going to school and learning how to be a wife. My 30’s have been spent relearning how to be a mom and putting my kids above all else while still trying to maintain self care, provide for a home financially and emotionally on my own, deal with parenting with teenage angst and the difficulties of high conflict coparenting all while also dealing with a chronic illness I have no control over…

it always seems like something. I never get a lull in action. I’m getting to be an expert on identifying what I can not control, which is pretty much everything. I am getting better at accepting that with every mountain I climb but still I see more mountains that seem to be never ending…

I have struggled with what my actions have done to my children. I have been told , “No child should ever go through what you’ve put us through.” And she is right…

However, I hope that with the mountain I have thrust upon them without that intention, they learn how to be stronger than I was. I hope that they learn that they do not have control over every aspect of their life and they never will. I hope that my shortcomings have brought them lessons that will make them who they are and will mold them into amazing young women who have more insight and empathy than anyone else. I hope to model what Farmer has done his whole life, putting others first to find his own happiness.

You see what we go through now is all part of God’s plan and while it may not be fair, we do not have to be victims of circumstance. We can take control of what we have gone through, what we have experienced and not only use it to master climbing the next mountain but to help others around us going through similar struggles.

If you look around you, the happiest people have lost themselves in serving others. The happiest people have seen the darkest days. The happiest people do not focus on themselves and what others have done to them but rather look for the silver lining or lesson God may be trying to teach them. The happiest people do not focus on the unrelenting mountains ahead of them but rather rejoice in the mountains behind them and in what they have accomplished by climbing them and helping others through them as well…

Our lives will never be fair so we might as well live them happily anyways. So climb your mountain looking for lessons and help a friend climb theirs because that is the true key to happiness. 🧡

2 thoughts on “Beyond mountains…

  1. Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
    James 1:2‭-‬6 NIV

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  2. One of these days she’ll understand, Jess. I think every parent unintentionally puts there kids thru shit. I know I have. She’ll grow up and figure out that Moms are human too.

    God is our happiness. It’s focusing on the beauty that God always reveals when we are willing to look closely.

    Im glad you shared that Proverb. There most definitely will always be mountains. I love climbing mountains tho. It’s hard work but so much fun. That gives me a whole new perspective on strife.

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